"Because things are the way they are, things will not stay the way they are."-Bertolt Brecht
I have never been one that does well with change. I'm a planner so when change occurs I can get super stressed. I have to try and create a new plan and that can be a scary thing. Lately it seems that there has just been change after change happening in my life. Not just little changes, but fairly big ones.
Gamma is no more, we are selling our house, and Danny is moving. (Cue stress mode!)
The end of Gamma was a pretty big thing for me considering I had pretty much planned the whole rest of my year around it. I knew it was going to be a very time consuming, but very rewarding, calling and I wanted to make it a top priority so I could fulfill it to the best of my ability. I was so excited and could feel that we were going to have such a great year. The swift and sudden end of it really hit me and I realized how this next year is going to be very different than I had planned.
I also just recently found out about a week ago that we have to sell our house. Being older and having lived away from home I didn't think this would be that big a deal to me, but this is my home. I have lived in my house ever since I was 7 years old and have made so many memories in it. The news made my a little more upset than I thought and I have been dreading the task of packing things up. This is going to sound selfish, but I had never really planned on moving out of my house unless it was on my terms, like when I moved out to go away for school. But even then this was still my home. It's hard to imagine life not in this house.
And Lastly, Danny is leaving this Saturday to go to medical school in North Carolina. This is something I have known for a while now, but I just can't believe how fast it came and what a big change this is going to be. I never expected to meet someone and get so close to them and then have to say goodbye. It will go from seeing him every day to not knowing the next time I will see him. He could still potentially stay if he gets into the U, which he is on the wait list for (I'm still crossing my fingers!), but as of right now North Carolina is where he will be. I really am so excited and happy for him and know he is going to be amazing, but saying goodbye is not going to be easy. Luckily I get to drive out there with him and he bought be a plane ticket to fly home (isn't he the best?) so I will get a few more days to spend with him. But a week from today is going to be a very hard day.
The purpose of this post isn't to be negative and about me complaining so I should probably hurry and make my point. Sometimes change happens and it is unavoidable. It can happen gradually or quickly but either way we have to accept it and be able to adapt and know that things happen for a reason. The changed plan can end up being better than the original. The end of gamma could lead to great things in my singles ward, moving to a new home will save money and the thought of getting to have a new room and design and decorate the way I want is very exciting, and Danny going away could end up being a good things for us. Basically the future is unknown, but we have to make the most of what comes our way and do it with a positive attitude. I know that sounds cliche, but that is one very important thing I have learned. It is pointless to be negative because then it is so much harder to see the good in something.
So instead of looking at these things as "changes", I've decided to look at them as "adventures." Let them begin!